Please note: This is a companion version & not the original book. Sample Book Insights: #1 Ho-ing is the process of becoming sexually free, and it can be challenging. You run the risk of being slut-shamed when you're a woman who's sexually free, because that's just how our society works. #2 The choice was simple for me: quit the show and save my sanity, or buck the hell up and find new ways to cope. I was called every name under the sun, and eventually became so anxiety-ridden that I started drinking to cope. #3 I had tried living in LA when I was 19, but I had lasted only six months. This time, I was 23 and I felt different. I was going to grow some balls and go to Hollywood, where I would make it as an actor. #4 I had to make sure I could afford the rent and bills at the top of the month, so I set my mind on finding a job as soon as possible. I got a fit modeling job for $40 an hour, which meant I was a living mannequin. I would wake up at 6 a. m. Monday through Friday to get glammed and ready for downtown LA by eight.